Struggle For Sobriety: Quitting Psych Meds and Being Manicly INSANE?(when your mind relapses)

Ok, I'll worry about cleaning up my act, image, after I succeed, but for now;
Psych Meds Are A BITCH(no offense I'm not using the B-word in any derogatory attitude, but psych meds are a real pain in the ass, I have seen so many lives ruined by mental illness, my mentally ill disabled aunt Eve was ran over by a car because my moms mentally ill disabled x-boyfriend left my aunt Eve to cross a dangerous highway alone then the guilt killed my moms x-boyfriend he drank and took pills into a suicide death, they both lost the battle to mental illness, but me living with and knowing them the problems date back to when they were younger and got prescribed that first psych medication which eventually led to being on 10 to 20 different meds before they died)

WARNING: This blog will probably come out semi-sexual, because when you quit meds your anxiety and your neurotransmitters skyrocket, through the rough, which makes you horny, but bare the brunt, and do not break, celibacy is a key to success.
(I know that just got WEIRD)

That's where it all begins, folks, don't ever get on psych meds to begin with, because I'll tell you, as a person whom has been put through the ringer, therapy is the best option. Training is a great option. Nutrition. Faith in GOD! NET(Nutrition/Exercise/Therapy)

You get a headache when you quit seroquel, too, and it is making me drink CRAZY caffeine, which is making me manic, then took two(I think two)aspirins, cause I was unsure if I took one.
You know what? I'm sick of all this crap, let me live and die in peace, like animal species do. I don't want all this synthetic toxic crap they're selling. I just want to be PURE is that a too far out dream.

I did get an erection.
For like an hour in the shower, in the dark, my anxiety was so high, I drank a ginseng shot, and couldn't help it, it relieved my anxiety, but I did no cum, I won't do that, I'm celibate.

I know you readers want the juicy stuff.
And it is SOOOOOOO liberating to not care what any of your fellow humans think of you.
You should try it.
Liberate your self!

I'm BLUR!
Really,
anyone going to really be shocked about something someone named BLUR says?

I'm striving to live celibate, and that isn't easy!

Another cup off caffein down the hatch(TEA! TEA!),
clarifying that you drink "Tea", instead of coffee or energy drinks is like someone that "sniffs" cocaine, "Yeah, I don't drink coffee or energy drinks, that is beneath me. I drink *****TEA****, Earl Grey. Lipton with bioflavanoids, and amino acid theanine)I'm just fucking with ya.

Ok, maybe I should not write blogs when I'm completely manic out of my mind, but it's too late now.

The Truth Is: I battle to quit seroquel and caffeine, I'm completely mentally ill at the moment, hopeless and hypochondriac, manic depressive and delusional, and just overcame mt habit of substance abuse with dextromethorphan and would do dextromethorphan once a month and masturbate and watch pornography. And now that dextromethorphan is out of the picture I am fighting to overcome masturbation and be completely celibate, but this anxiety, tension, despair to succeed, the stress of watching my moms life fade before my eyes, the financial suffering, the boredom, the loneliness and being trapped in these four walls but to socially anxious to have a social life, the food vice obsessive eating, and the fight not to have the urge to try to escape, but your penis is right there, always, and it is an urge to escape when you feel so trapped. This is what you can call a VICIOUS cycle, but I am fighting to overCUMMMMMM THIS(hahahaha, no pun intended), but you see, I'm mad in the head! But I am so close to overcoming all this and really hope this brutal truth brightened someones day, if you feel you are so alone in your insanity, know when I tell you, "EVERY SINGLE HUMAN IS INSANE TO SOME DEGREE, but a rare few will admit it, and THAT'S THE TRUTH".

p.s. I went to look up one funny gif about an erection, and it almost pulled me into a full temptation I end up looking at photos for a couple minutes, till I said, "Oh no. STOP!", so I stopped my self. Sorry World!

Boy, this blog got weird, fast, huh?